Still dreaming, still working, and ever hopeful!

It's insane that I can even contemplate trying to get this body back - THANK YOU HQ!

In my wildest dreams I didn't think getting back in shape was really ever going to happen again.  As of November, my goal was to be stable on my feet and not trip and fall (with the hope of being able to get back to riding again on the back burner).  For three years I struggled walking on any sort of a grade and frequently tripped walking.  I had truly given up and instead decided to eat my way through the depression I smiled through.  As the months rolled on, I became weaker and weaker to the point I couldn't ride my horse without my knee giving out. 

For those that have followed my wellness blog thus far, I'm sure by this post I probably sound like a broken record talking about my broken bits, and "Oh, woe is me."  Be damned "Woe is me", "I'll get there" is my new creed!

Without fail, there is a daily gush to whoever taught, whatever class I took today.  Today, Carolyn and Patty were on the receiving end!   I just can't stop sharing my gratitude to staff and all the super friendly members at HealthQuest. They will probably never know just how much they've helped influenced my life for the better. HealthQuest is like an addictive drug and my renewed passion to exercise is unparalleled!  I LOVE each and EVERY class, and gush over the instructors like an enamored teenage fan girl on the regular.  Seriously, I know I look like a dork with a GIANT smile on my face all the time.  I just can't help it!

My friends keep laughing at me (hopefully with me) at how excited I am.  I will no longer be defined by my broken bits, but I will never forget to thank the body that is willing to work with me. I almost feel whole again.  

I then think to myself am I getting greedy dreaming of getting back to the body of my 45-year-old self? Is it too much to ask of this old body to try to get back to the lean, mean manure mucking machine I was in my 40's?  I can't believe I'm even entertaining the thought, but there it is.  All I can say is - We'll see.  

I won't say that I don't occasionally trip while walking on the treadmill, or that I don't drape my arm over the handrail while walking on the track.... But every day, I trip less and walk more.  Here's to another great day tomorrow! 

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